domingo, 13 de septiembre de 2009

Confessions...

Helloooo! Waaaieww..... I just got up in a sad, sunless morning of Sunday. First confession: alcohol has taken its toll tonight, yesterday I drank toooooooooo much... stuff happens! uffffffffff.... my head is about to blow up... Ok, news... ummm... nothing. I'm now in a rather sad phase of my life (sorry, I don't want to bore anyone...) Admittedly, for some time nothing makes sense to me, videos, female mask, crossdressing .. . The only thing I was excited, the femskin, is now light years away. Its high price, coupled with little success to lose weight, make it a distant project. Yes, I have tried to lose weight, because now I could not be within the femskin, although I know that is very elastic. I don't want to take refuge in alcohol, because I'm not an alcoholic, but sometimes it's hard, veeeery hard... Confession 2: two months ago, to exit the routine and boredom, I wanted to do a test. I accept the proposition of a guy in a chat. "Come to my house, darling" he told me (he had seen my videos) "You bring your sexy clothes, and we'll have a good time you and me". I went to his house and I dressed as a woman, (or bitch...). I had already shaved my whole body to be "more beautiful". Mesh stockings, high heels, vinyl mini skirt, a low cut top, fake breasts... and the wig. I felt ridiculous in front of that guy, although he insisted that I looked beautiful. He began to caress me, told me nice things, and touched my fake tits... But then, came the worst: he was naked. And when I saw his huge cock, I didn't like. I do not know what to do. I tried to kiss her, caress her, but I felt nauseous. I had to apologize, and I fled from that house. I never saw her again that boy. Nothing. I'm not gay, and I'm not so woman as I thought. I'm not transsexual, I'm just a transvestite. A fetish transvestite. That's it. I like that people admires my body, fake body, my dresses, my clothes.. That's it. Anything cross that barrier for me is getting a bit more in the quicksand. Recently I read the blog of a guy, he says that he's a transsexual, has some crossdressing videos on youtube. She's gorgeous. I'm very happy for her, and I hope everything goes well .
Changing the topic! I have found this video on another blog that I follow, I hope you enjoy it.